Ready or Not, It's here anyway!

Today was the first day back.
I thought I was ready to start the school year and get into a routine, but I quickly figured out that I am not ready in any capacity.
Listening to people talk at you all day, is not ideal, for me anyway. But one part of me feels like it's really time to go, leave this school, whoops.. too late for that this school year, however there is another part that's telling me I am here for a reason. Let's hope it's the latter, because I may lose it this year.
I have noticed as I get older, the more emotional I get and over stupid stuff, I want the old me, the unemotional one, where no feelings are shown. Like today for instance, I started tearing up over something so minor, so petty, but at that moment everything in my mind and body began to tell me what if this... what about this... All I did was begin to look at the past, not the present.
So, after a long day of meetings and sitting on my butt, then a wonderful visit with two of my darlings, that have graduated and off to college in the fall, I prayed and listed to kind words from friends, I am going in this year positive, and whatever is thrown my way I am ready, because the Lord has prepared me and I know I have His strength in me to make it through.
Tomorrow begins a new day. One filled with more meetings and people talking at you about policies and expectations. Maybe I am ready for the kids to be back, maybe I am ready to be back in a routine, but I know I am definitely not ready for a bunch of mess and fake people. As I go to bed, I will remember tomorrow God will bring a new day and I get to start over, put on a smile and know you will bless someone today! That's at least what is going to get me through this coming school year.
Bring it on!